Monday, April 20, 2009

Holding our Breath

We're in wait and see mode. My sis is seeming much more like her old self. We have to evaluate her situation and pray she will have a complete recovery. That being said we must protect my nephew and her from her self. Right now she just wants to come home. I hope that can happen if it's the best thing for her and my nephew. I don't know where she would be with out my little sister and big Bro.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


My sister is happy for the first time in years. Granted she has no short term memory and is a bit loopy. But being in treatment or recovery for the last years had taken a toll and robbed her spirit. Somehow brain surgery returned her humor, and the unpredictable silliness that I love. We talked for hours about our lives from childhood to adult but when I left the room for a minute she would not remember where I’d went. She is like a goofy kid trusting and full of love.

I was able to sit with my siblings and discuss the ugly details, insurance, living will trust and most important my nephew's immediate future and beyond. We cried and laughed but mostly we laughed. This is the hardest thing we've ever had to deal with however I know with God's help we'll get through.

Thursday, April 9, 2009


Well, my sister surgery was successful. Now there will be recovery. We need to help with my nephew and her home. I can only pray we do the right thing. I’ll be in Houston this weekend. I want to be with her as much as possible. I am positive everything will be fine.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Greener Grass

One tumor down one to go. My sister is recovering from surgery and everything looks good. The sky is blue today and my grass is growing. I can't wait to cut it, to work to live. Appreciation for all things is the key to be here now. We've got a long road, I thought, we’d crossed the bend, I look ahead and hell there is another hill. We can take it I know we can.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Cancer Sucks

I’m having trouble focusing and I’m numb. My sister who was diagnosed with colon cancer, which was in remission, is in the hospital with two tumors. Crazy shit. I don’t know where to put this. If I think I cry…I want to turn myself off until the nightmare is over. I can’t so I pray. Pray with me for her.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Great Weekend

The run was fabulous and we had major clutter clean up this week end. My house and my body feel renewed. I am cleaning up so I can move on to bigger and better things. My main focus is my butt, my art as a business, my family and my home. Everything is good and can only get better.

I have already had to break up a fight between my sons, nothing major but it sent me into screaming crazy mommy mode. HATE IT but how do you stop this cycle? On the positive ledger I had a good walk and decided to be more organized in stopping the fights in our house. I’ll be getting this book about behavior in teens and doing some research and soul searching. Help me Lord.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Beautiful Spring Day

The weather is crisp and wonderful. Usually our family makes or buys pizza. No one is up for making it so tonight there will be pasta for dinner. I love Austin and I am running in the Capital 10k on Sunday; it is my second time with my son. The weather looks good and we'll have a big fat roast tomorrow with pasta to get us ready. We are not involved in team sports however we are an active family. I’ll have a pot of vegetarian chile waiting for us when we get home perfect for the weather.

I am working on cleaning out the clutter this weekend. I made good head way and have some items on Craig’s List. Some one could use my collection of 34oz coffee post and a broken sliding glass door. I have a sofa that must go this weekend I ‘m going to put my oatmeal and grit pots on Craig’ List too. I need to clear out useless stuff.